Its been a long time
Hey! So its been a long time since i last blogged, well mostly because I'm so tired and upset.
I've studied so hard for this outcome, really disappointing. I wanted to cry when I saw my results, but I guess that I find it too embarrassing. I just passed everything and like its not good enough. like everything c5 c6 but my geog a1 ! yayyyy. First time i passed chinese. Quite happy. Still so upset with my disappointing results. I think about it and I still wish I could do better. Even the subjects i'm good at, I didn't do very well. Just a pass, some people say I should be happy because most failed but I still think that a pass isn't good enough. *sighs*
So joshua is getting me a hamster, I'm happy. Kinda. * cheers *
finally a companion. :/
Still depressed about my results but move on, its over. No point in thinking about it.
Oh well, so I went hard core shopping. Bought a lot of things for the first time with my friends.
Then on Saturday I went to mark's house for his birthday, he got a liverpool cake >: It was kinda awkward. Mark was a bad host. HAHAHAHA. Was alone for almost the whole day. Had fun though, left around 2am. Saw augustine for the first time in a long time! ^^
so WCM was today, missed it. Damnnnnn i wanted to watch cos like, i could have been there ): and how cool will it be to tell people 'eh, i was a national rower' HEHEHE COOL RIGHT yea cool. but i'm not. I suck at everything, don't even think I can get into my desired class. But rest assured, I'll work just as hard next year. Maybe even harder. Its so upsetting. *depressed*
Honestly, I don't mind taking it again. Even if it means the long hours of study, I wouldn't mind studying again. If only I knew the teachers were being a bitch and set it real hard. Gosh, but I can't change the past. MOVE ON MOVE ON.
Things easy said are hard to do.
Feel like ghandi or something, but yea. OKAY LA ENOUGHENOUGH.
Actually I got a lot of things to say but like, I forgot. Maybe I'm too upset >:
I don't know. Life isn't very good for me now a days.
I just really hope I get into my desired class and have fun in china
OH YA, I'm gonna stay in a hotel the whole time. This means when I'm going to the village I have to climb up the hill everyday. & Climb down, but yay hotel. I feel slightly independent.
oh and I had my jabs. Damn painful. My arms are still sore even though i got them on Monday. Had a bad headache after that. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
nvm it will go away.
i know i'm not suppose to be upset but. WHYWHYWHY. ah wtv
Still got lit. Wondering if i should take core lit or core geog? maybe core lit hor? then elect geog or hist? I wanna take history cos it seems quite interesting but my geog is better than history. so maybe geog.
Well okay, i wanna stop here. Shall have another post soon?
ciao,
why am i doing this?
no one reads it.
POSTED BY Sabrina Thebloodycuteandawesomegirl AT 9:33:00 PM |
EOY SUCKED ; Brother-less
HEYYY, So today was my last writing paper (: I have cl oral tmr though. I predict I'm gonna fail. Well its my niche eh? Failing chinese! HAHAHA. So today was emath paper 2 and I didn't even complete it ): But i have to say it was easier than paper 1 LOL. I didn't even get to do the quadratic graph! ughh, marks gone. Was so depress i started editing more photos. I need to feel good LOL. I know I'm not pretty so its okay. and i guess out of all the photos i edited this would have to be my favourite. Really looks like me (:
hahahaha okay so here is the original, don't laugh i know its ugly. lol
hahaha, then my second favourite would be,
and the original is
HAHAHA actually, i have a secret desire to look as pretty as xiaxue in her photos LOL.
To be honest I find her much prettier without makeup cos like i don't like people with heavy make up, i think its very... weird. Not natural? HAHAHA.
Okay who am i to say all of this, I'm not some expert.
So the maths paper... Don't know if i can take a maths ): sigh so sad. I wanna emo man, might go and sleep after this! Haisssssh.
OH and science sucked too. I studied so hard to like fail.
Science is my niche, i got first in class for the recent ca ^^ FIRST HAHAHAHHA FIRST FOR EVERYTHING RIGHT? (: yea but this one was difficult.
They made us balance equations which I'm alright with but they expect us to know the formula for nitric acid sulfuric acid and hydrochloric acid. and guess what, i didn't memorise ))):
Thenthenthenthen i anyhow right. Gonna fail k.
But the reason i didn't memorise it was because the ca which they tested us on balancing equations, they gave the whole line we just had to fill it up. So irritating. and balancing equations is a sec3 topic. HOW ANNOYING ARE OUR TEACHERS? REALLY.
Its really sad because I have never studied so hard before. I mean even psle I wasn't like this! It really makes me feel that all my efforts are wasted! Ahh lets just hope for the best okay? *cross fingers * & before my science paper i got really mad, why? My ex brother (not sibling rivalry) In my heart I have disowned him. I thought he was really nice cos he wanted to buy me macs. But on sunday he demanded money from me.
So it went like this (R) him (M) me! :
R: Wheres the money?
M: Why?
R: Pay back for the macs la! Mummy gave you $10 right?
M: Yea.
So i gave him $6.50 cos thats what a meal cost right?
R: I want $10
M: Why?
R: Delivery charge.
and i'm like wtf, yup, that dude has no heart.
M: Delivery charge only how much, $3 right
I gave him $3 and said
M: Next time don't ask me if i'm hungry cos i rather starve than give you money.
And that pissed him off, he likes to be respected you see.
R: I'm giving this to mummy. Why must always eat macs? Why you don't help this family save money?
M: Mummy see me work so hard thats why she want to give me.
then i started to cry cos it really pissed me off
R: You couldn't have said no?
And i'm thinking, people offer you good food, say no for what? I mean wtf he care so much about what i eat?
M: She want to treat me so i say okay what, whats your problem? Get out of my room I don't want to see you. I'm trying to study and you come and demand money from me.
And I broke down cos it was really frustrating coming from him. Like, I can't indulge because its a waste of money?
I hate him. He thinks i never contribute?
He is ns and on mc because of his cast but he goes out which is illegal. Cos if you're on mc you're suppose to stay at home. He has a cast and he is driving. not only is it bad for HIS safety (why do i care?) but also for the people driving right? So my dad always goes to the pub and since he is in a cast, my sister has to send him. Then when my father left for philipines, he suddenly can drive. That day my sister wanted to use the car because she was going to her friend's house. But he didn't let her because apparently my father asked him to do stuff. I told my sister that she had the right, just scold him. After all she is older and he can't be 'disrespectful' right? But my sister too nice already.
You know, he doesn't help my mother with housework. and he has the cheek to tell me I'm not helping with saving money? Sorry, I'm a child. I enjoy now but when i grow older i'll pay my parents back right? I know i know, He must be jealous of my achievements, that my parents treat me better because I'm younger. But I can't stand his attitude anymore. I blocked him from twitter. I didn't want to let him see my tweets anymore neither do I want to see his. I bet he read my tweet thats why he know i got money. It pisses me off that he can't stand the fact my parents give me money. I'm saving right? Why does he have such a problem? I don't want to be related to someone who is such an asshole.
Since when was he so caring about the family's income? He always thought about himself.
He did quite some things that my father would have definitely disapproved off. and HE THINKS HE IS GOOD?
He eats beef, my dad would never forgive him for that.
He has a motorcycle license, my dad disapproves of this.
I just need to tell my father this and he is screwed.
Oh that reminds me, removing him from facebook family. I know its only a social network but I don't want to be related to him.
I can't stand his attitude
He wants people to respect him but he doesn't give a shit about others?
Its never his fault. He will always find a way to point it back at you.
I almost shoot back at him 'I study hard thats why my parents want to treat me, unlike you drop to normal academic.'
That would have killed him. hahaha
Saw him in the lift the next day, Ignored him because like i said, I don't want to be related to someone as heartless as him.
When I'm older, I'll treat my sister to anything and everything she wants! Because she has done a lot to make my life much better.
My ex-bro?
Nothing, because what has he done to make it better? Nothing, in fact he made it worse.
If he was a tad bit nicer, if he wasn't so rude and disrespectful. Maybe just maybe I would hate him less. I liked him, he was such a good athlete. Very sporty, very fit. But his attitude, changes everything. he is 22 yet he can't be a little less immature and treat his younger sister by 8 years nicer?
If my dad finds out and he starts telling me about how we have to be united, I'll just simply tell him about how he did that to his own brother. Then he can't say anything right? After all he can't be a hypocrite.
Gosh enough about him. The thought of the whole thing pisses me off and it just makes me wanna scream in his face. Till my brother , ex brother , apologise, we'll see how.
Even if he does something nice I don't know because he really made me too pissed off.
I can't tolerate anymore of his nonsense. Till he becomes a little more matured. When that day comes, I wonder how old I'll be.
Well, thats about what happened in my life besides my exams which didn't go well and my asshole ex brother ^^
Thats all for now.
See ya later alligator.
ALLIGATORS SO CUTE FOR YOU ALL.
I know i'm lame.
xoxoxo
POSTED BY Sabrina Thebloodycuteandawesomegirl AT 12:50:00 PM |
REAL STEEL!
Hello ! Watched real steel yesterday ^^Sister brought me to watch cos I was so upset LOL
Well it was about this young boy named max and his father named charlie (wolverine)!
So charlie was a professional boxer in the past then people wanted to see more actions so they got robots to fight! Max's mother passed away and is suppose to be left under charlie's custody. Then charlie 'sold' him to his aunt who is wealthy and etcetc! So they went overseas and charlie had to take care of max! blablabla then they went to the junk yard and maxfound a robot! Charlie didn't want it but max did so max spent the whole night digging it out of the ground. He was a sparring robot, never meant to do any damage! His name was Atom. :D At first it thought it was adam.
Yea so after fighting at a lot of places and got famous he finally fought the best 'robot' which was called Zeus, they lasted the 5 rounds but the judges still choose zeus ): unfair! But atom was already called the crowd's favourite! ^^
HAHAHAHA. Totally worth watching ! ^^
Reached home at 12? But the show was really really nice man!
I was never bored at all, its really interesting, very futuristic !
Okay so this morning I told about my mum about the kunming trip! Yes i'm going for an overseas trip again! This time its 8 days and its a mission trip! But the good thing is it will be cold in china! I'm departing singapore on the 8th on november and me back on the 15! Gonna be so fun? hehehehe.
Yea, so anyway I'm going to get 3 jabs
1. Hepatitis a
2. Influenze
3. Not sure LOL
Yep its cost $115 ): All in one day ):
17oct! Its suppose to be marking day ): but no i'm coming back for this LOL.
Yep then on 19october I'm going to pestpetarian sec (whuttt?) for something!
hahahahahaha ya, still got a few other points but its not important.
Suppose to order macs but after I give my details the women told me 'sorry unable to deliver due to over-whelming orders' REJECTION OF CUSTOMER. I'M SO DEVOTED AND THEY TREAT ME LIKE THIS? ): -HURT-
Yeah! anyway, my mother wanted to treat me because she said I've been so hardworking and I deserve a treat. hehehehehehehe Love my mum? ^^
I'm gonna study soon, but I wanna eat first ):
Oh and I had a horrible nightmare ):
I dreamt that my bro passed away then my family decides to suicide to be together and I was unwilling because I haven't experienced a lot of things and I haven't done a lot of things then I started crying LOL. Worse dream ever!
Okay shall find something to eat and its back to studying )))): Don't have the mood, ughgugh.
10/10/11 - Science
11/10/11 - E Math paper 2
12/10/11 - Cl Oral
I honestly think its retarded to put oral on another date. OH well, a few more days to, FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEDUM. WOOWOOO. YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM. HEHEHEHHE.
K See ya (;
POSTED BY Sabrina Thebloodycuteandawesomegirl AT 10:42:00 AM |
Whew
Done editing! I put a nice picture on the side ^^Does it look pretty? LOL.
Edited it, well I need to feel good about myself right?
After all shes gorgeous and I'm fugly. ^^
Blog skin nice? Had no idea what to put at the side so yea! Hoped its nice and you all love it? FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER KK! Mention me if you want a follow back (:
POSTED BY Sabrina Thebloodycuteandawesomegirl AT 2:40:00 PM |
YOH. COS TWITTER IS DOWN
Hey so maths is over, and it sucks. I could have cried but it was too embarrassing and I didn't want to be laughed at but everyone was crying! Well the paper suked. It was so difficult. I decided to use the computer for awhile to make myself feel better. Depressing day. So my dad went to Philippines and I have to buy my own lunch, i'm too lazy. I'm so deprived of sleep and food.
Okay so I found out her name. Well, I won't say who. But i've been stalking a certain someone and well they do seem close. She is 1 year older than him. I thought he said he will never like older girls? Well it really makes me wonder, is it because shes pretty? I honestly think i'm Ugly. I am, don't need to thing. I'm feel like I'm such an emotional roller coaster. I mean, i really have lots of things to ask like
1) Whats so good about her?
2) What about me?
3) I'm bloodying annoying right?
4) I'm so insecure, thats my weakness right?
I've never let my walls down because I never want to be hurt, I don't want to feel pain. I know I can't handle it. Its true, jealously kills.
I feel like its eating my soul alive.
Sounds cheesy but I'm serious. I'm insanely jealous. I don't know about what, just jealous.
Shes beautiful, then I look at myself. Hey I'm bloody ugly. What can I do? Plastic surgery? hahahaha. No money and can't handle what people will say about me.
I said I'll try to forget about it, I'm trying. Maybe I shouldn't have asked. STUPID CURIOSITY. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't feel this way, but then again, if i didn't ask wouldn't this be a lie?
ahhhhh. Life is harddd.
OKAY, MOVE ON MOVE ON
Craving for pepper lunch now. I'm still super disappointed with myself, why am I so stupid? Wish somebody could cheer me up. But i'm here slacking away. Feel like my effort is wasted like.... I tried so hard, I studied so hard to fail? Well..... I'm just. Dumb.
Okay I'm gonna change blogskin, keep me pre-occupied. Forget about today. Its gonna be pink ^^ Love pink man. Used to hate it but PINK FTW. welllllllllll, gonna remove tagbox too cos i forgot my account and nobody tags so. whut everrr.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfNVfiqKBeM&feature=colike
oh and i'm in love with this song. I forgot how to get the one featured on the blog. lousy me.
In attempt to look BEAUTIFUL
CANOEING FTW HAHAHAH SCREW MY LIFE K.
Added those just for fun. hehehehehhe. okay enough. i go edit blog skin
See ya soon.
oh ps.
RIP STEVE JOBBS
oh and i realised you 2 like the same songs.
POSTED BY Sabrina Thebloodycuteandawesomegirl AT 12:36:00 PM |
hey peepshey peeps
heyyy, well. I've decided to blog cos hoping a certain some one would stalk me LOL. Well. I'm a jealous bitch (just to let you all know). The thought of knowing he likes another girl kills me, no joke. Yea. Discovered quite some things about myself 1. i can't live without him 2. i make a lot of mistakes but then again, nobodys perfect 3. I get jealous easily 4. i'm damn ugly (knew that long ago) 5. i have no reasons to be loved 6. i suck 7. i really suck 8. nobody loves me.
Okay its true. Hahahahahaha. Well today was a... Happy day? Well, i got first in class for science! Yay so happy and surprised. Who would have expected someone as dumb as me to get first? I've always been second, third and last but first. Hurray. Well gaya got same marks as me. Dk what she told rawdah. But heck care, i'm still first??? Hehehehehe. Just happy. Wish i could tell him but he doesn't seem to care. And i'm like k... Hard to tell him about stuff. I'm so confused and hurt. I try my best not to think about it but its the only thing on my mind. Haish, like wtf did she do. I tried everything, for this? Ahhh stop it sab, just get over it and move on.
Well tmr is my lit!! I've studied hard and i pray for an A1. Lets hope i get it k!! I'm tired and i got listening tmr too. Shall post another post tmr? If not soon.
Ciao,
nice to read about my crappy life?? LOL
POSTED BY Sabrina Thebloodycuteandawesomegirl AT 10:44:00 PM |
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