I've studied so hard for this outcome, really disappointing. I wanted to cry when I saw my results, but I guess that I find it too embarrassing. I just passed everything and like its not good enough. like everything c5 c6 but my geog a1 ! yayyyy. First time i passed chinese. Quite happy. Still so upset with my disappointing results. I think about it and I still wish I could do better. Even the subjects i'm good at, I didn't do very well. Just a pass, some people say I should be happy because most failed but I still think that a pass isn't good enough. *sighs*

So joshua is getting me a hamster, I'm happy. Kinda. * cheers *

finally a companion. :/

Still depressed about my results but move on, its over. No point in thinking about it.

Oh well, so I went hard core shopping. Bought a lot of things for the first time with my friends.

Then on Saturday I went to mark's house for his birthday, he got a liverpool cake >: It was kinda awkward. Mark was a bad host. HAHAHAHA. Was alone for almost the whole day. Had fun though, left around 2am. Saw augustine for the first time in a long time! ^^

so WCM was today, missed it. Damnnnnn i wanted to watch cos like, i could have been there ): and how cool will it be to tell people 'eh, i was a national rower' HEHEHE COOL RIGHT yea cool. but i'm not. I suck at everything, don't even think I can get into my desired class. But rest assured, I'll work just as hard next year. Maybe even harder. Its so upsetting. *depressed*

Honestly, I don't mind taking it again. Even if it means the long hours of study, I wouldn't mind studying again. If only I knew the teachers were being a bitch and set it real hard. Gosh, but I can't change the past. MOVE ON MOVE ON.

Things easy said are hard to do.

Feel like ghandi or something, but yea. OKAY LA ENOUGHENOUGH.

Actually I got a lot of things to say but like, I forgot. Maybe I'm too upset >:

I don't know. Life isn't very good for me now a days.

I just really hope I get into my desired class and have fun in china

OH YA, I'm gonna stay in a hotel the whole time. This means when I'm going to the village I have to climb up the hill everyday. & Climb down, but yay hotel. I feel slightly independent.

oh and I had my jabs. Damn painful. My arms are still sore even though i got them on Monday. Had a bad headache after that. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

nvm it will go away.

i know i'm not suppose to be upset but. WHYWHYWHY. ah wtv

Still got lit. Wondering if i should take core lit or core geog? maybe core lit hor? then elect geog or hist? I wanna take history cos it seems quite interesting but my geog is better than history. so maybe geog.

Well okay, i wanna stop here. Shall have another post soon?

ciao,

why am i doing this?

no one reads it.